Dreams and Children

May 20, 2015 4:50 a.m.

I just had a dream where I gave birth to quadruplets. I gave birth in a bathtub (and oddly enough Aunt Carol helped me deliver them!), but it took a long time and was painful.

The first child had dark blue eyes at first. (I didn't recognize it during the dream, but when I woke up I realized it was Hannah, who had deep blue eyes for several months before they turned brown.)

I was trying to write out names for all the babies in the dream after I'd given birth to all of them. I was holding a pen and staring at a notepad, but no matter what else I tried to think of, the only name I could write was Lucy.

I woke up and thought of the meaning of this, and I realized that three of the four quadruplets were Hannah, Abigail, and Lydia. That meant I was going to have a fourth daughter, and her name would be Lucy.

In my half-asleep stupor I thought of middle names, and the name Sophia came to me, because it's from Justin's family tree, and I promised Justin's mom a few years ago that I would use it.

I prayed for an interpretation, and the only words I received was, "You have already interpreted it." Then I asked, "but is this interpretation real?"

I got the feeling that I would have to wait and see. My cycle is three days late, and I'm pretty positive I'm pregnant. If it sticks and it's a girl, her name will be Lucy, probably Lucy Sophia.

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Well, that dream was almost a month ago. I am now 8 weeks pregnant, but I've been cramping every day, and considering my two previous miscarriages it's difficult not to worry that something might go wrong.

I'm...fairly positive that everything is going to be okay...eventually. It's been tough to keep my emotions in balance, but I know God has a special plan for each of my children.

As for this upcoming one, if it's a girl, she will definitely be named Lucy Sophia. I was doodling the name down during the Payson Temple Dedication, and I felt overwhelmed emotionally and spiritually as I stared at the name. For a good thirty seconds it was all I could think of.

Did you know Lucy is NOT a nickname for Lucille? I mean, it can be, but originally it derived from the Latin name Lucius and means "light" or "bringer of light".  And Sophia means "wisdom" or "Holy wisdom".

Light and wisdom? Yep, I have no doubts that my dream was more than just a dream.

I'm nervous and excited. How did God see fit for Justin and me to raise these precious girls? It's such a sacrifice, but I love them so much, and I will keep fighting the good fight - trying my best and enduring to the end.