A too-Realistic Dream

Abigail woke up in the middle of the night on Friday/Saturday from a nightmare. Usually her dreams are imaginary, disjointed things, but this dream was not.

She said she was playing outside the playground with the white fence in our neighborhood and that she was alone. Then she said someone sneaked up behind her who she didn't see while she was playing, and they grabbed her and took her. She said it felt real, and she was crying and really frightened.

I had recently been getting more relaxed about Abigail and Hannah going outside together or Abigail going outside with her best friend Brayden, but after discussing the dream with Justin and the kids we all felt strongly that Justin or I should be out there with them from now on. I did notice that day that when Hannah and Abigail go play that Hannah will ride her bike, leaving Abigail alone, and Brayden goes off on his own a lot too.

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Conference was chaotic but uplifting when I wasn't stressed.
Lydia got her 2nd tooth today.
I've been experiencing some kind of sensory overload and anxiety attacks a lot lately. It's scary, and I'm embarrassed about how it must have looked to my inlaws.

I'm grateful for the Savior, and I wish I could have been a little more reverent today. Happy Easter.

Genius, Insane, or both

I think I'm hearing voices in my head...

I've been sick for 3 1/2 weeks. I was saying a prayer on my food today: "Please help this food to help me get better (I added turmeric and cayenne pepper, so it would be extra healthy. I was praying in my head, so a lot of this was a silent burst of thoughts.) I wish it could help Hannah get better too. But that's ridiculous. I can't physically help her get better...but maybe God might have made it possible...Is it possible for the food someone eats to help someone else get better?"

I instantly heard a clear voice in my mind.

"Yes, through the transfer of energy between particles."

I sat there for several seconds. Um....whaaaaat?

So, I finished up my prayer, got my tablet, and googled "transfer of energy between particles".

That brought me to an article on the Theoretical Foundations of Resonance Energy Transfer.
I skimmed it and was struck by the introduction, so I googled, "Förster Equation" and read the wikipedia page on Förster Resonance Energy Transfer, which led me to link to the page about chromophores, which prompted me to look up light therapy.

By the time I finished, I was convinced that I had either discovered scientific proof that light can cure illness or else that I was developing another mental disorder...

*sigh*

Then again, maybe it's all a metaphor that should find a way to heal my daughter via spiritual light.

*sigh again*

I am going crazy...